Hysterectomy

Today I'm feeling great. Made all 5 days this week and put in some miles. I know my title. What's up with that? Well, today I am really thankful I had it done. I remember how bad it was before. It would keep me from wanting to move let alone go to the gym and get sore. It's a big relief to not have to worry about pregnancy as well. I think Benny helped me with this decision. I did not want to go through that again. Even though I did enjoy my pregnancy with him. The heart break that came is something I didn't want to go through again. I'm really looking forward to this summer with the kids and more energy. Who would have thought I could change some eating habits get rid of an organ, workout and be so happy. Well, happy today. Gotta keep moving.

It's just Thursday

Well, it is. For me that's laundry day. It's also menu and shopping day. I think I might take this task a little more seriously now than I did before. You see it's what keeps my diet going. I choose the fuel for my family most of them like it. One resist a lot. So, there's a lot of prayer that happens today. That good choices are made. Don't go buy the candy that's really cheap. It does save money and calories when we ate at home. Did do a "family style buffett" dinner last night. That would be way splurge. Hushpuppies when your hungry because you skipped breakfast just a bad idea. Time to get back up and keep going. Slipping up isn't the end of the world. Call it out and move on. So, here we go. Still at the gym. Still with the water. Still trying to limit sugar and carbs.

Just a crapy day

Been on an emotional roller coaster. By the way that sucks. Knees hurt so elipitial was way slower then I wanted. Did my workout. Made more prep breakfast. Been crying most of the morning. Just sucky feeling. Going to keep my ass away from the food today though. There's no real comfort there. So say a little pray if you think of it. Feeling this emotional battle today.

Calling it out.

I have to ask God constantly to help me call out the negative. I had to quit weighing. The scale would be a yo-yo. And, it made what I was doing feel pointless. So, the decision was made to wait. This year my birthday because it's license year (part of getting old) and I don't want to lie this year. When I'm sore and just want to stay in bed. I know I'm not the only sore one getting up. I thank God we all talk about being sore and keep moving together. Sometimes I look in the mirror and realize this body won't be that dream body. But, in a way it is. It keeps moving. It is getting stronger. I got tired of people telling me I can't do it. You won't keep going to the gym. You can't do it with out medicine, surgery or any other crazy thing. That's all wrong. I can do it with God! Even if I have to ask for strength everyday. It's worth it. I'm worth it.

Type A or B

Why does Shane think I'm type A? I think he is but he sleeps easy and can turn his brain off. There are days I wished I could stay focused and keep rolling. All but the boldness I guess I am type A. I love to compete with myself more than someone else. Witch is a great thing today. I did my first V-up! I want to shout but more had to be done. They certainly are challenging and I love it. I love when God gives me the strength to do new things. It is so awesome. It is the game I play by myself. I love a new challenge. Trying to find delicious healthy meals is a fun challenge. Expecially when you're trying to get 5 people to like it. I'm ready to live. God and me have all kinds of stuff in store. My present shape is going to have to change. More water please. Time to get my day going.

Love myself

Love myself sounds weird. But, I have to work on it everyday. This body, this gift God gave me. Loving it somedays is hard. Today was hard to go sore and move. Nope I don't feel better afterwards. I think I may have drank to much coffee so I feel sick this morning. Kept moving and good news I didn't get sick. My prayer is I get up tomorrow and do it again. The sit-ups where a little easier, we'll the first 15 were. My prisoner is still stuck on the ground one day I will get there. Still need to read my Bible today. Prayers for good choices.

Haters

Weird title. But, I fight with the biggest hater everyday. It's me. It's a battle when I doubt myself. When I just want to sleep in. I'm sore. I see no point in this. I fell off the eating better (little chocolate bars last night 7). So, today everything is sore. I got out of bed woke up my beautiful children and put on my workout clothes. Lift myself back up sore and ready to go. I have no end goal this is it. I want it to get easier. I want to jog further. I have monetary goals. Like my new year how soon can I finish my 500 miles. It's a little at a time but I'm building again. My single servering has been going well. Finished 90oz of water yesterday. I drink 20 before I have anything. (Coffee or tea in the morning) it sets my day off. The other haters are people that don't know you. They don't know the struggles you think are written all over you. I fight with gluttony. I over enjoy food. Or I'm sad or have been pushed down and fall everytime I try. Today I see a fighter that gets back up and at it again. I fall, I hurt, and I mess up but I'm not quitting. Now for the mom day cooking and laundry. And, for my mind I started a new bible study.