Calling it out.

I have to ask God constantly to help me call out the negative. I had to quit weighing. The scale would be a yo-yo. And, it made what I was doing feel pointless. So, the decision was made to wait. This year my birthday because it's license year (part of getting old) and I don't want to lie this year. When I'm sore and just want to stay in bed. I know I'm not the only sore one getting up. I thank God we all talk about being sore and keep moving together. Sometimes I look in the mirror and realize this body won't be that dream body. But, in a way it is. It keeps moving. It is getting stronger. I got tired of people telling me I can't do it. You won't keep going to the gym. You can't do it with out medicine, surgery or any other crazy thing. That's all wrong. I can do it with God! Even if I have to ask for strength everyday. It's worth it. I'm worth it.

Type A or B

Why does Shane think I'm type A? I think he is but he sleeps easy and can turn his brain off. There are days I wished I could stay focused and keep rolling. All but the boldness I guess I am type A. I love to compete with myself more than someone else. Witch is a great thing today. I did my first V-up! I want to shout but more had to be done. They certainly are challenging and I love it. I love when God gives me the strength to do new things. It is so awesome. It is the game I play by myself. I love a new challenge. Trying to find delicious healthy meals is a fun challenge. Expecially when you're trying to get 5 people to like it. I'm ready to live. God and me have all kinds of stuff in store. My present shape is going to have to change. More water please. Time to get my day going.

Love myself

Love myself sounds weird. But, I have to work on it everyday. This body, this gift God gave me. Loving it somedays is hard. Today was hard to go sore and move. Nope I don't feel better afterwards. I think I may have drank to much coffee so I feel sick this morning. Kept moving and good news I didn't get sick. My prayer is I get up tomorrow and do it again. The sit-ups where a little easier, we'll the first 15 were. My prisoner is still stuck on the ground one day I will get there. Still need to read my Bible today. Prayers for good choices.

Haters

Weird title. But, I fight with the biggest hater everyday. It's me. It's a battle when I doubt myself. When I just want to sleep in. I'm sore. I see no point in this. I fell off the eating better (little chocolate bars last night 7). So, today everything is sore. I got out of bed woke up my beautiful children and put on my workout clothes. Lift myself back up sore and ready to go. I have no end goal this is it. I want it to get easier. I want to jog further. I have monetary goals. Like my new year how soon can I finish my 500 miles. It's a little at a time but I'm building again. My single servering has been going well. Finished 90oz of water yesterday. I drink 20 before I have anything. (Coffee or tea in the morning) it sets my day off. The other haters are people that don't know you. They don't know the struggles you think are written all over you. I fight with gluttony. I over enjoy food. Or I'm sad or have been pushed down and fall everytime I try. Today I see a fighter that gets back up and at it again. I fall, I hurt, and I mess up but I'm not quitting. Now for the mom day cooking and laundry. And, for my mind I started a new bible study.

Food changes

There are days I know I have to look at food differently. I put to much comfort in food. We male memories around it. Oh sugar sets off different things in our brain. I am trying to look it at like fuel. My engine needs good fuel to run. I heard this concept before and I stole it. I know days I eat to much or make poor decisions I don't feel like working out. I don't feel like doing much. When taking care of me and my family because for the most part I choose their food as well. I try to balance it. Sometimes the bad fuel comes in at little burst helps is from over doing it. Same subject I can't believe I only had one little chocolate bar last night, fun sized. I normally have ten. I do challenge myself in this portion control and what makes me run better.
Water was good yesterday over 100oz. Kept to single servering by putting the leftovers away after I plated everyone's dinner. If it's not out in the open we don't think to ask for more.

Challenging

Challenging, I have felt is my word for this year. Doesn't it sound better then hard. Or it takes work. I choose to challenge myself to try new things to push a little further. That sounds awesome. In all my excitement I really know God is with me. Sunday he adds it to the message clearly was spoken to me. Because, my response during service that's my word for the year! God bless me. I needed that reminder. That I choose to challenge myself daily. I want to read a devotional daily 5 days a week. Be a better mom daily. Challenge myself to in the moment world. So, diet wasn't so great yesterday. Stayed on top of my water. Had a little to much Chinese food. Way to much sodium. I should have planned my day better. I will celebrate no pizza small piece of cake and one serving at dinner. And, no late night snack. And, knowing I don't pray alone in this world. Til tomorrow love yall!

Snow day

Stuck in my little corner of the world. Days like today are rough. Harder to stick to my plan. So far so good. No binging. I did spend my morning cooking. But, not eating. Still one serving room keeping up with my water. Really looking forward to working out with my husband tomorrow. I feel like a marshmallow today. Not much else to write about.