My favorite excuse

I don't have time. There's no time to workout. There's no time to meal plan. People say you make time for the things that are important to you. Your kids your spouse some how you put yourself last. Yes working out is for me. That time I need. I need it for more than making myself into a healthier version of me. I need it because I spend time with God then. I get in my corner blare music in my ears and talk with God. Sometimes I don't hear the words of the music it's just sound. But, we all need that time. So my favorite excuse has turned into me time. Trying to make it intentional love for me. Hard to say sometimes that I love me because I have spent so much time beating myself up with all the negative. Today focusing on the positive this body still gets me going from one point to another and I love it.

Modified

So, this morning on the second round of burppies I was not wanting to do them. Reason I do classes. Your more likely to do the stuff you don't want to. But, the memory of my first modified burpy came to mind. I had to get on my knees lay out on my stomach and get up any way I could. It took forever and I was so out of breath. Then it became get to your knees and stand up. I know there still not perfect. But, I don't stop at my knees. I had to move on from every modification. It took progressions and time. I had to modify then I had to try without the modification. There's still a lot I can't do yet but, I know with time and if I keep trying it will happen. My prisoner will get up one day. And, I can't wait to tell everyone about it.

I lived

This song started my thinking today. As a reminder of why I started and keep going. This song talks about living. I struggle with the question what do you want. I felt like God was telling me what do you want? What is it. I want to live. I don't want to be a slave to the that shows me people acting like they're living. Well guess what I am not in shape. My body won't let me live like I want to. So, I need to train. I have to work at it. I can't stop. I want to live. So when you picture Noah screaming at me. That's my answer. I want to live.

Journeys

I can't shake thinking about journeys. Not just mine. Not how mine wasn't my plan. But, no one wants the the crappy sucky days, months, or years. We all want tje rainbow. We all want the joy. But, those sucky days mold us to who we are. You have to keep going. Have to get stronger. Don't stop. And, on the journey sometimes you find the awesome. I know everyone's journey is them and created just for them. My journey isn't over. Still working at it. But, seeing the awesome in even the bad days makes everyday something to look forward to.

One day.

One day is a phase used around my house a lot. It's like a dream. One day bills will be easier to make. They are. One day we will go on vacation. One day we will travel. One day we will be healthier. One day. All of our one days take planning and hard work. One day Shane wanted to be a lawyer. One day we will go on a honeymoon. One day is taking work. I want to be more fit. I want one day to come. One day Shane won't have to rely on pills to keep his sugar regulated. One day I will run a 5K. One day my knees won't hurt everytime I workout. I plan to live healthier so one day will be awesome. It's all about one day and prayers for those one days.

Keep trying

Today it was brought to my attention how I did plank/jacks yesterday. And, how I couldn't at the beginning. And, some people when faced with that would quit. Oh I wanted to. But, my conversation with God was I am going to do what I can do and just keep moving. So, that's what I'm doing. There are still things my body won't let me do yet. I keep trying. One day I will. I can't wish it so.  I have to keep working at it. And keep praying. That's it today.

Shopping

Today was nice. Only had one kid clothes shopping. I was in need of more workout clothes. Good news JC Pennys carries extended sizes. And, on sale they where. $2 I am a shopper. I did enjoy shopping a size smaller and everything fit. Even two sizes smaller fit. Only came home with what I needed right now. The only child I took was my tiny girl. We have all kinds of issues getting clothes to fit her. I was so happy to get a swimsuit that fit her tiny longer frame. Me on the other hand. I am not looking forward to swimsuit shopping but, need to keep my confidence up for an example to my girls. Have to love this body God gave me. Hope everyone enjoys their day.